I haven't been around here for quite a while, and I'm really sorry for that. I wrote a little something though, so I thought I'd share it. Keep smiling. =]
Let’s be honest here for one second. No matter how ordinary and simple something is, it’s there for a reason. Every object in your house was created for a purpose. It took design upon design to get it right. Your personal needs were considered during this process, the ergonomics planned to detail to make it easy for you to use. They must have been, or else your days wouldn’t be spent sitting on a chair, or opening the fridge, or going for a walk in your new trainers. You wouldn’t be able to write that essay you’ve been putting off, or watch television, or take the photography you do with your camera. Down to the finest detail, everything you own and take for granted has been deigned and planned, scrapped, and designed and planned again before ending up in the shop in which it was bought. Do you know what the sad part is? All we see these objects as, is simply an object. There’s no harm in that, mind you, but sometimes it’s nice to appreciate the beauty behind it and how much thought went into making lives easier.
Move on from there now. It’s one thing to have things planned to fit your needs, but think outside the box a bit. There are things outside your window that nobody ever planned for. The tree outside, with the leaves greener than any green – the tree outside with the leaves duller than any green! The grass that’s just gently swaying in the slight wind, and the sky, perhaps dotted with clouds that hide the sunlight. Nobody designed any of that, but if you take a moment or two out of your day to admire it, you start to notice that the world you live in is shaped to meet your needs. The process it takes to breathe the oxygen you’re breathing was accidental and happened by chance, and yet here you are, living day after day, surviving on that oxygen. Take a breath. Can you feel it? It’s not just nature, it’s magic, and it’s keeping you alive. Isn’t that beautiful?
Personally, I find that if you think about what you do every day and how you’ve come to be there, at that specific moment, and what it is that has allowed you to live to perform your daily actions, you find more hope in life. Doing this won’t change your life. It wont cure illness or stop you hurting, but it helps you find a reason to fight those unfortunate encounters off. If you look close enough, it can help you find things to enjoy when life isn’t too enjoyable. Believe it or not, you’re here for a reason too. You are a miracle, because the odds it takes to create the exact person you are, are incredible. If even one thing had changed, down to the smallest tiniest detail, if one tiny little part of your DNA wasn’t what it is right now, you’d be a totally new individual. You wouldn’t have met the people you’ve met, fallen in love with the people you’ve fallen in love with, or been the person you’ve been or are. Noticing that can be the difference between hating who you are, and learning to accept that you’re extraordinary.
It’s a long process. I’m not saying that doing what I’ve said here will change how you feel about the world over night. In all honesty, the likeliness of anything doing that are close to zero, but it’s worth trying. You’re worth fighting for. The road to recovery, self acceptance, even happiness, is a long one. It’s full of bumps and ditches and dark nights. It’s full of nightmares and screams and crying and pain. Nobody said life would be easy. That was never a guarantee and it never will be. What I’m trying to say is that there’s always something to fight for. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel and not everything is as bad as it seems. Sometimes it’s hard to see that, and the negatives in life seem to darken out the positives, but they’re just as important too. It’s crucial to take note of them so that life doesn’t seem so hopeless. It’s worth the fight, and it’s worth the pain to simply be happy again sometime later.
So don’t give up. The fight is worth it, and you’re not alone. You can do this. Remember to look for beauty in the ordinary, even if the ordinary is you. I promise you, if you open your eyes wide enough, you’ll find that you’re beautiful too.
